Somethings we were not meant to understand; Unanswered so we can have some gratitude.

Seasons change and months collide, time moves on and we look back with fewer regrets. I often think back to when i was young and had less faith in life. This defiance and thinking i knew everything! I ruled the word and there was nothing you could tell me. Now i watch the orbit, the movements, the theory. Understanding life is painful - Living in life is beautiful. The questions of all time, questions that will never be answer in reason allows me to transform and drift off into a deep though; Daydream.

Are we along in the universe?
How are things so perfect?
After mass amounts of time, atoms eventually manipulated each other flowing with other elements and here we are? Really? Is this the part where most religious fanatics cast faith like spells to lie to people about the brutal and frightening truth we call "life."

Death?
I think about not controlling my conscience, not having a conscience. The one thing that allows me perceive reality. Allows me to understand objectives and problem solve. Will i know after death that i at least got a chance to live? Why me? Out of 300,000,000 possibilities from my fathers seeds and my mothers DNA/Egg. The infinite ways people are themselves - I could have been someone else which in return not knowing what existing even was?

I do love how everything generates (lives/Dies) in circles/cycles - Where there is balance there is stability and everything feeds off one another or feeds into one another. Even the earths hidden core has influence on cycles and systems. Our sun, the solar system. Atmosphere; Containing life, supporting life, influencing life - We are so lucky.

My biggest concern is understanding how space in infinite? No boundaries, no walls, no end. Our minds can think of space but we will never really comprehend its true value.

Most people think this is owe to them. Most people don't care to much for it. Most people feel so lucky and joyless. Most people are easily manipulated - Me? I'm a realist a bit of a thinker. Knows there only one promise to us all and it the hardest thing to reason with. Death; Not existing; To be forgotten; Lost among all the rest who died before you and will die after you. Systems will collapse and things will die but SPACE, will always be there. This thick heavy black mass that holds the pieces together will always be.. Defying the very thing we hold so close but can't reason with until the last possible moments..